Since that period of life goes further and further, i think more and more it's a dream. But if it is really a dream, i prefer not to wake up forever. Never ever. I dont like this feeling, but i fail to keep that beautiful time. It gets rid of my hands. I have nothing can do. It's a long time that i haven't dream when i sleep. But i really would like to dream about you. Cause only in dreams, we can be near each other. So near.

 I would like to feel you again.

When i turn off the light, sit on the floor in the corner of the room, listen to the heavy rain outside and the music you gave me, i feel really really really lonely. The world is silent, my mind is blank. I dont wanna move, just wanna be numb, to stop the miss and the pain.

But where you are.
But what you think.
But do you know i miss you so much.

I still feel so unsafe, though we have a promise. I'm even not sure if that's a promise or not. 5 years, not long, but not short as well. I dont know what will happen at that time. Really, dont, know.